This is the first day of the year that I really dread. My son Shane(16) returns to NY on this day. He will not be back until this summer. It takes me a few days before I can see through the dark clouds again. Then I can begin to look forward to summer and seeing him once again. Today will be a long day.......
I called my friend whose Father suddenly passed away, she wasn't at home. I did not leave a message... really, do you leave a condolence massege on an answering machine? I think not. I will try again this evening.
A friend from playgroup had her baby..... this is when I question life. Someone dies=one family is in such severe pain. Someone is born= one family is in such supreme utopia. Yet it is still not a balance.
For me death comes in threes. I am including Anna Nichole Simpson, My friend's Dad, that is 2, and who is next.... Usually it is 3 distant people or a mix of people in my neighborhood and family. I'll keep you posted.
So, for today I smile through the dark clouds, I focus on my two young sons at home. Pray I will never be separated from them like I am from Shane. Today I will listen, laugh and play...all day.